For those of you who actually read these things, you must be getting tired of them. But things have been fucked up this year. And, oddly enough, I’m not even talking about the world outside my home. Unfortunately, things with my wife and our family have been broken lately. Both of us are fighting severe depression and anxiety from it all, and as such I’ve had trouble getting myself onto the computer to get work done. If not for my editor, there would be so little done in regards to these reissues. But, luckily, she has been working hard to pick up the slack. In fact, she has edited everything except Horrific Holidays at this point (and we have some time with that one, seeing as it won’t be released until November or December).
My point is this: I am not making promises with anything I’ve planned and shared. Meaning, yes, Pray and Squirming Disease should be out September – I don’t doubt that, because they’re done except for some resolution issues with the cover spreads – but other releases may falter. As I said in my last update, I am hoping to have Dead as Soon as Born available in October, Kill for Them by November (if not also October), Horrific Holidays in December, and Charters (my new screenplay series) early into 2021. That being said, I worry my depression may fuck up some of those expected releases. This isn’t even the first delay. Originally, I expected Charters to be out fourth quarter of this year, and all of my reissues available before summer’s end.
It has taken me a week just to format four stories for Dead as Soon as Born, which is incredibly slow. In fact, I should have had a proof print already ordered by now. Instead, at this rate, I won’t be doing that until the end of July. I still need to format another ten stories, and build a cover spread. With how hard it’s been to get me on my computer, it’s possible I won’t even be ordering a proof until sometime in August (which is quite last minute for a September release).
I’m sorry. I really am. This sluggish progress (on my end, not my editor’s – she is killing it) is actually making my depression even worse. I just want these fucking books back out there for you all, especially since they are so much better now. But my mental health is poor, as is my wife’s, and we’re struggling just to stay together for our daughter. It’s getting rough. Money is just about gone. We’ve had to move back in with my parents (who we hate living with), and every day is just a fucking struggle one way or another.
So, yes, things may take longer than I’ve been promoting. I hope to get my shit together in time, but there’s only so much I can do with what’s happened to us. We’re trying to deal with things and figure out ways to fix things, but it’s not going well yet.
Lastly, I don’t really know what can be expected in 2021. At this point, I think I may just be submitting everything I complete, and take a year or two off from independently putting stuff out. Maybe this will work in my favor and get me a publisher. Maybe it won’t. Only time will tell.